I found out last night

Right now, The Neverending Story is playing in the background and I’ve paused a game on my phone. I was going to write a post this morning. I was going to try to tackle something about fear or pain or medication. I was going to just try to get some sleep first. I was going to only be up for a moment…

However, I found out last night, during one of my repeated wakings, that a friend had passed. I was going to tackle grief. There it was, clear as day, what I wanted to share openly with all of you.

She passed due to an overdose. I was going to tackle addiction and share with you my feelings about a struggle that faces as much stigma as mental illness and sometimes shares a mind with it.

I was going to tell you my coping skills that I was trying to implement. This is as far as I am going to get right now. I will share my grief with you when I am ready to share. I will share my frustrations and fears. I will share my love for my friend. I will share my tears and the tears of those close to me.

But not today.  Today I am going to watch my movies and play my games and cry to myself because that is how I need to grieve right now. There is no wrong way to grieve, and so this is right for me.

~Brutally Honest Eccentric~

In loving memory of CP, may she and her loved ones find peace.

2 thoughts on “I found out last night”

  1. We all grieve in many different ways. Currently sitting here questioning how I am supposed to grieve a loss. Not so much a current loss as it was someone I knew very well years ago. And in passing in the last few years. So tears and reminiscing in my head as the clock ticks by while cuddling my kitty. And feeling horribly sorry for his family and all of the unexpected loss they have endured the past few years. (((((Hugs))))) and here in to safety of anonymity I can say that yes it is affecting me more than it should. Or…. more than I think it should.

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