I tell myself this so many times a day. It doesn’t matter if I need a cup of coffee or I’m trying to reorganize the mountain of stuff that I try to pretend doesn’t bother me. I can do this. It’s gotten to the point where I don’t even say “I can make myself coffee.” Just repeating over and over in my head “I can do this” as if I’m reminding myself that I can still breathe.
You see, there’s another part of me that whispers back “Just give up already.” It’s not a conscious thought, it doesn’t even come in my voice. It’s just a whisper left over from all of the things that I couldn’t do or was told I couldn’t do.
I try to remember this one piece of a Kevin Smith thing where he’s basically saying “The world is full of “why”, surround yourself people who say “Why not?” So I try to be that person and when I hear that whisper that says I can’t do this, I try to scream back “Why not!” I know my depression lies to me. I know my self esteem lies to me. So unless I can think of a damn good reason Why Not … I will just keep saying “I can do this.”
Whatever you’re facing, please know that you can do this too. I have faith in you. Why, you ask? Why not?