We all have our days where it’s one foot in front of the other… simple tasks are hard, harder tasks are unthinkable and even enjoyable (usually enjoyable) things feel like work. I hate lists… I get overwhelmed by them, but I figure for today, why not. This is what my “list” usually entails (in literally no order at all):
- Coffee … or tea … caffeine.
- Make cigarettes
- Take Meds
- Check social media
- Play Clash Royale
- Play fishy game (like Candy Crush but I like it more)
- Play search and find game
- Clean anything
- Drink enough water (near a gallon)
- Check the cat has food and water
- Take nap
- Go to bed
What my day really looks like lately:
2, 13, 1, 12, 2, 5, 4, 3, 5, 11, 3, 8, 3, 14.
I have no interest in half my games, not even Ingress right now because it’s been so hard for me to get together with my friends. Eating happens because C is a chef so, food happens. I’m just kinda blowing off most of everything still. It’s not intentional, it’s just that my motivation level drops significantly under stress or during depressive episodes. I want to do all the other stuff, or rather, I want to want to do the rest of it. I’m out of spoons, I’m out of sporks, I’m just out.
So there’s me for the moment… how’s your list looking?