So that was a long and unexpected, unplanned break. Winter is hard for me. Each year I forget how much it really turns my world inside out. For one, it’s 3am and I’m wide awake. More awake than I was at four in the afternoon yesterday. It’s as if my body decides that night is longer and thus, I should be awake for it instead of the day.
I always have trouble sleeping. I think we’ve covered that more than once, but now trying to go to sleep at our normal time results in a two hour nap and then I’m up.
The holidays went well for me. I overstressed myself for weeks prior but handled them relatively well, except for when the chair we knew was breaking… broke. I sat on the floor for a few minutes trying to figure out how to handle it. Ultimately, I was fine – never had a blood blister on my ass before… but there’s apparently a first time for everything in life.
I have no reasons or excuses as to why I stopped writing. I just stopped doing everything I normally did. For weeks, my actions were symptoms of depression but my emotions didn’t match. The last couple weeks have been much worse. I even got my lithium tested because my moods were that far off course.
Hopefully I’ll be back to covering more topics than just my broken butt from a broken chair soon. I want to say I will, but all I can say is I will try.